Tiga Hari di Salzburg!

Setelah lebih dari setengah tahun perjalanan ini dilakukan, akhirnya Nerissa sang pemalas ini berhasil juga ngumpulin sisa-sisa semangat juang yang ada untuk merampungkan tulisan tentang kunjungan singkat namun luar biasa itu ke Salzburg, a very very very cute and adorable small town, yang kebanyakan orang-orang kenal karena film zaman kita kecil dulu, Sound of Music.

21 Things from 2017

  1. People can't solve your problems.
  2. It's okay to stay away fro any form of toxic situation, even it means you have to lose something you thought was important.
  3. Parents are also only ordinary humans. They make mistake too.
  4.  Stay humble, really. Always stay humble and grounded. All the things that are given to you aren't actually yours anyway, what to brag?
  5. This is freaking clichè, but do appreciate yourself. Self-love is very important. How people could love you if you don't even love yourself?
  6. Save your money. What you save will save you in the future.
  7. Everyone has their own story. Don't ever think you know someone so well.
  8. Be private. Nobody needs to know what you did yesterday, or last saturday, or that night at the restaurant.
  9. Fear makes people do bad and pathetic things.
  10. Know your value, then you know which things are worthy to give a fuck about.
  11. Pain makes you stronger. 
  12. Never expect anything.
  13. You know that a few things are not good for you, you know that they aren't nice things to do - but you still do it?
  14. Always be kind and thoughtful of others, but don't expect anything in return.
  15. Everyone nowadays can use social media, but not everyone is smart in using them. 
  16. What you have right now is enough. But, it's kind of normal as a human being to always crave things. At least, always be grateful first for what you already have in hand.
  17. I listen to Taylor Swift or BTS, then why? Why do people keep judging others music's preferences?
  18. You will suffer. It's inevitable. There will be dark days, but it depends on how you react to those. You can only grow after defeating your own battles.
  19. Allah is the only and truly The Only One you come back to and you are alive right now is to serve and please Him.
  20. It's a scary and crazy world right now, remain in faith. 
  21. This universe is big, but He is much much much much much more bigger. You are just a tiny speck of dust who knows a little more than nothing, don't be stupid to think that you know it all.

2018: being a junior doctor

The first two weeks of 2018 has been good so far I like it.
I turned 23 too this year, which is so weird because I don't feel like I'm an adult enough to be 23. But, here's one thing I realize that when you get older and older, birthday doesn't feel so special anymore.
It just feels like another ordinary day, except you exactly turn a year older.

Looking back to 2017, which was actually the most annoying year of my life when things seemed so in pieces, I'm so grateful that I'm here and doing what I'm doing right now. I'm grateful that I decided to continue my hospital rotation and here I am finally; waking up at 5 AM everyday, spending the whole day at the operation room wearing scrubs and having assisted around 25 surgeries everyday yet eventho I'm tired and my back aches every morning I wake up, I enjoy every bit of the whole process. 
I love the girls in my team. I love the hospital I work in. I love the people in the OR I get to spend time with everyday. I love the whole new experiences I get every single day. And I'm grateful. 

The whole process will take around 20 months until I finish every departments, which I'm sure won't be easy, and to finally be able working as a practicing doctor, I firstly must pass the national examination and take part in an internship program for a year. It's a long process, it's not going to be easy, but I think this is exactly what I want to do. And I'm, once again, grateful for this opportunity and of course, privilege
Insha Allah, I promise I'll do my very best and I'll never take things for granted.

On my 3rd night shift, we had an emergency surgery at 1 AM. There was a knock in our room, telling us to get ready and that time, it struck me that this is what it feels like to work in medical fields.
Your time is no longer yours only.

Lastly, this is a book I just ordered online. After finishing When Breath Becomes Air, I think I should read more books in medicine and finally, I decided to get this copy and I've enjoyed it so far.