The Controller

One of the things that make our lives miserable is when we try to control everything.
You wont understand everything that's going on in life.
He has a plan and He knows how to bring the good out of it.
Keep going and try to be grateful.
Without gratitude, patience is impossible and without patience, happiness and success is impossible.

Vienna with Dilara


Finally, Vienna!
A city I've truly been dreaming about ever since I read and watched Nodame Cantabile almost a decade ago. Sungguhan ibukota musik klasik yang super classy!



Kunjungan ke Vienna yang ini 10x menjadi lebih exciting karena aku akhirnya ketemu lagi dengan teman lama aku semasa sekolah di London, Dilara!
Rasanya sepanjang perjalanan dari Praha ke Vienna agak lebih excited dan berdebar-debar gitu, dan benar aja begitu sampai di terminal dan akhirnya ketemu Dilara, hahaha we both were freaking out!
We screamed and we hugged and we laughed so much, it was so funny!
It's been five years since we last met with each other and no wonder tho! 



Banyak alasan yang membuat aku jatuh cinta banget sama Vienna. 

  • Vienna bersih. Bersiiiih banget. Selain bersih, kotanya juga lebih tertata rapi dan elegan. Jadi, kalo dibandingin sama Paris yaaa, jomplang banget. Ibarat Paris itu Pasar Santa, Vienna ya Farmer's Market atau Food Hall. 
  • Transportasi umum yang bersih dan super nyaman. Menurut aku agak mirip dengan metro di Berlin, tapi untuk harganya yang 14euro untuk dua hari dengan fasilitas yang bersih dan nggak bau pesing, itu very worth-it enough
  • Diverse! People of colour! Aku nggak ada ekspektasi kalo akan ada banyak banget imigran di Vienna, dan begitu aku masuk metro dan melihat sekeliling, dan benar aja banyak banget orang-orang dengan paras middle-east
  • Muka Mozart dimana-mana. I mean, padahal Salzburg lebih bisa dibilang kotanya Mozart secara doi lahir disana. Tapi, benar-benar negara musik klasik, ya!


Tapi ya nggak bisa dipungkiri juga kalo Vienna itu kota yang terbilang cukup mahal. Kayak untuk makan di restoran, beli magnet kulkas atau gantungan kunci, bahkan beli-beli jajanan di supermarket agak berasa mahalnya. 
But still, Vienna is such a lovely city afterall.


Menurut aku, tiga hari di Vienna sudah cukup untuk explore tempat-tempat turistik yang bisa dikunjungi, karena kota ini nggak seperti London atau Paris yang kayaknya nggak abis-abis tempat yang bisa dikunjungi.

Di hari pertama begitu aku sampai di Vienna, aku nggak kemana-mana. Sampe di apartemen Dilara yang super airy dan klasik dan nyaman dan lucu dan ugh anything I could ask for if I'll ever be able to settle down in Europe, kita istirahat sebentar dan langsung ke supermarket untuk belanja makan malam. 
Besoknya Dilara nemenin aku keliling Scohnbrunn Palace, St. Peter Church, Hundertwasserhaus, Austrian National Library, Volksgarten dan downtown-nya yang aku lupa namanya itu. Terus kita juga agak setengah mati cari Wiener Schnitzel yang halal, karena rata-rata pasti terbuat dari babi. Tapi, akhirnya nemu juga yang terbuat dari ayam dan meskipun agak mahal, tapi enakkkk banget! Apalagi dipaduin pake nasi yang aku curiga impor dari Timur Tengah haha sumpah enak banget. Saking enaknya, pas pulang ke Indo aku kepikiran dan kepingin makan lagi dan ada dong yang jual di Grand Indo (lupa nama restorannya)! Ohya, kita juga sempat lihat-lihat Weekend market yang jual barang-barang bekas. Tapi kalo kata Dilara sih, "They're just simply selling junks!"

Terus besok harinyaaa, karena Dilara nggak enak badan akhirnya aku memutuskan untuk jalan-jalan sendiri. 
Dan apalah artinya di Vienna tanpa datang ke The Prater
Pasti yang udah nonton Before Sunrise punya obsesi sendiri untuk datang ke taman bermain legendaris itu. Dan benar aja dong, itu taman bermainnya simpel banget. Nggak ada heboh-heboh macam Disneyland, bahkan kalo bisa dibilang mah mirip banget sama taman bermain di pasar malam. 

Setelah dari Prater, aku jalan menuju downtown lagi dan foto-foto aja sampe puas dan ketemu sama teman baru dari Couchsurfing, Jakob.
Waktu itu kita ketemu di depan St. Peter Church dan langsung cus ke kafe dan duduk disana berjam-jam untuk cerita. Suka! Doi pintar dan wawasannya luaaas banget. Dia juga udah tinggal di berbagai negara, dan ini yang aku suka dari orang-orang Couchsurfing. Open-minded and well-spoken.
Kita cerita dari sejarah kota Vienna, cerita dia selama tinggal di Beijing dan Mesir dan rencana jalan-jalannya di Jepang. Apalah aku ini yang masih bau bawang nggak ngerti tentang dunia.
But he asked a lot about things too to me! Indonesia kayak apa, Jakarta kayak gimana dan sebagainya. 
Sampe saking serunya terus nggak ngeh kalo udah tiga jam lewat duduk di kafe, akhirnya aku bilang kalo Dilara nungguin aku di apartemennya. It was a really really good talk!


Malam itu aku dan Dilara akhirnya memutuskan untuk jalan-jalan aja dan duduk di riverside sambil minum-minum. Ofkors aku minumnya coke dong hahaha.

That evening was cold, but I liked it so much. We talked and talked and talked. Talked about this and that and this and that and finally we looked at our phones and it was 10 PM already. It was so weird how it's been five years since our London time. It was so weird how people are connected with each other. I basically live at the opposite of the world, but Dilara made me feel like home in Vienna. It was both so weird and funny. I don't think I'll ever stop bragging about how London changed my life, but that how my life really is.

Dilara <3
The sky that evening. 

Bonus: Dilara's cute and dreamy apartment! 

The Quran Journal #1: Change

"Allah will not change the condition of a people until they change what is in themselves."
(Q.S Ar-Rad: 11)

My reflection was simple. I picked this very personal experience of mine because I think this is really easy to digest.

So, four years ago I was a little bit overweight because I munched too much Doritos, chips and fried chicken. I didn't really notice it until one of my aunt said that I looked a bit chubbier and I felt my jeans started to get tighter and tighter. In no time, I decided to work out and start a healthier lifestyle, because like I said, I just ate too much doritos and junk food, they are absolutely not healthy and that needed to stop.
So then I finally started my healthier life.
My commitment to change for the better was really something I'm still very proud of myself until now. My dedication to cut all of bad food and exercise everyday for an hour was really something that I was able to maintain the habit for a solid month.

I only ate fruits, vegetables and chicken breast with at least two litres of water every single day and I didn't eat any fried food at all for the whole month! Not even kerupuk which I love the most. Not even chocolate or candy or cake or donut or whatever.
I was really discipline and strict of myself and after a month, I went back to my normal weight. I lost six kilograms which I think was really a big success. 

Then I really think this ayat relates to my story in some ways.

I would have never changed if I didn't tell so myself. I wouldn't be so dedicated and went to cut up all the bad food if it was only my mum told me to take care of my health, that I would think just because it's better in their eyes doesn't mean is better in mine too.

But this is it. When I finally thought for myself that I needed it, I really needed to the better of myself and I finally decided to do it for myself, not for mum, not for my friends, but for me - then I will really do it.

That guy wont ever stop smoking if he himself doesn't want to quit smoking.
The other guy wont ever pray if he himself doesn't want to pray.
The other other guy wont ever stop cheating on her wife if he himself doesn't want to stop that freaking bad habit.

I will never get those straight A's if I'm still lazying around all day all night on Tumblr, Instagram, Twitter, and Facebook.

It's in us, really.
It's all depend on us.
Your mum, your dad, your sister, your brother, your significant other, your friends can't change you. They might be the reasons of your change, but it's always your decision wether you really want to change for the better or not. And it usually just comes out from your heart. This is cheesy, I know, but it's true.

Just, be kind though.

"Ever in doubt whether I should help my friend or not?

What about, just don't think about it?
Because somehow someday, God will eventually repay everything you did in His own way though.

Imagine being in their shoes. Imagine if YOU are the one that needs help.

Perhaps the reason you are breathing right now is because of a pile of kindness you did one by one earlier.
You'll never know.

PS: and whether those people receiving your kind attention would be thankful or not, that doesn't matter. Don't stop just because people don't react the way you expect it to be."

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This morning I stumbled upon a post that's worth everything to make this blog coming back alive once again. To the girl who has written this through LINE app, thank you. Thank you.